“Now I Know”
By: ChanceCold

V.1
First off wanna apologize – for all the lies –
All the rebellion this hellion took out on you guys –
See I was confused inside – Hatred hindered my eyes –
It’s nothing y’all did – I promise –
It’s my fault you cried –
I caused all the sleepless nights, wondering if the cops would call –
Cuz I done run off again, lost in blunts and alcohol –
And all the while y’all still loved me and took care of me –
Did what you knew was best for me – yet I ruined our family –
Not really sure how y’all ain’t give up and quit –
Guess it’s unconditional love parents have for they kids –
And I have both parents – seems it shoulda been apparent –
How blessed I really was but the streets were the direction that I took –
Didn’t care that y’all cared at all –
Couldn’t see how bad I was really hurting both of y’all –
But looking back, I must say, I’m truly amazed –
How you never left your son and always loved me through the pain –


Hook:
I thank God I had both of you, I hope I made you proud –
Any time I was struggling – you were both easily found –
Now I know how you endured the storms and rain –
And I know the love you felt for me as I look in my kids face –
I thank God I had both of you, I hope I made you proud –
Any time that I’m struggling – you’re both easily found –
Now I know how you endured the storms and rain –
And I know the love you have for me as I look in my kids face –


V.2
Gangbangin, packing pistols – selling dope to make a living –
Was the opposite if what y’all taught me through adolescence –
But for me to learn lessons – had to learn the hard way –
I was convinced I knew it all – heard nothing y’all had to say –
A lotta regret there – all I got out that way of thinking –
Is felonies and feds in my house, with guns on my kids
And me lying there suffering from a pill addiction –
And the whole time, deep inside, I’m wishing I’da listened –
To my mother and father, who worked hard to provide –
And in my eyes, seriously – Y’all did everything right –
I’m the one that went the wrong way, Momma you stayed up and prayed –
Dad, you blamed yourself and the methods that you used to raise –
Meup – but that’s lies – y’all don’t ever blame yourselves –
Y’all is perfect parents defined – I Love You Above All Else –
And yes, my mistakes play a role in who I am today –
But truth is, I owe y’all for everything –


Hook:
I thank God I had both of you, I hope I made you proud –
Any time I was struggling – you were both easily found –
Now I know how you endured the storms and rain –
And I know the love you felt for me as I look in my kids face –
I thank God I had both of you, I hope I made you proud –
Any time that I’m struggling – you’re both easily found –
Now I know how you endured the storms and rain –
And I know the love you have for me as I look in my kids face –


V.3
Y’all go to all lengths to make sure we okay –
Me and my sister literally – owe y’all for everything that we have –
Cuz you never turned your backs on us –
Instead you lifted us up –
Now that’s real parental love –
I wanna say this too, the reason I know Christ –
Cuz you introduced Him to me,
introduced me to the Light –
And every night I thank Him for you and everything that you do –
I Owe You So Much – Momma, I Love You –
And Dad, you need to know you’re my only role model –
To be a husband and father like you, so I follow –
In your footsteps – a real man that loves his wife and kids –
Would lay your freaking life down for them – I Thank You For It –
Now You’re a Man of God – and We’ve Prayed Together –
While tem years ago, we couldn’t be around each other –
I’m sorry I’ve hurt y’all –
Wish I Could Take It Back –
But I Can’t – just know I love y’all and that’s facts –


Hook:
I thank God I had both of you, I hope I made you proud –
Any time I was struggling – you were both easily found –
Now I know how you endured the storms and rain –
And I know the love you felt for me as I look in my kids face –
I thank God I had both of you, I hope I made you proud –
Any time that I’m struggling – you’re both easily found –
Now I know how you endured the storms and rain –
And I know the love you have for me as I look in my kids face –