So Numb –
So Numb –
Like Open Doors Like Open Doors –
V.1
So numb, care and love is evaded –
All feeling inside of me has completely eviscerated –
Complicated decision making – guess I was mistaken –
I’m contemplating on a way to take it – take it away –
My life’s at stake and my soul is too –
Window pane had to break and had to clear the visual –
Cataclysmic – Inclement weather distorting my mental –
Gun Fire – Fuse is lit –
It’s time to cause ripples and waves –
Tidal waves, Hurricanes, and Tsunamis –
Ready to change the game but the doubt still haunts me –
Never believed in myself – Just acted like I did –
My eyes are open doors to see the trauma as a kid –
All it did to crush and kill me internally –
How that inferno fire was lit under me –
Driving me to be exactly who I am and do what I do –
Walk on the battle field to understand why I got so much to PROVE –
Hook:
Like Open Doors – Like Open Doors –
V.2
Can you see it? If you could, would you believe it?
Arguing with both sides of me, compliantly I’m deceiving myself –
And Hell is closer than I’d like it to be –
I’m walking in fire man, my desires interweaved with selfish motives –
I can’t keep my focus – on where the cross is –
Each and every single moment –
Got me hoping for something better – but then I go back –
Got me fighting without a weapon – I’m Under Attack –
And there’s no sympathy – From these enemies –
Poisonous adversities assuring me that hurting me
Is the goals of their plans and schemes
And to affect me negatively – Adversely – See Me Deceased –
Does it matter that my history controls my future?
Fall like autumn leaves – when autumn leaves the Cold Winter Arrives –
Can’t Feel It Inside –
Man I’m numb to the pain and I close my eyes,
I’m Ready To Rise –
credits
from Straight Outta The Gutter,
released May 22, 2014
Produced by: Tunna Beats
Recorded At: Cold Studios
Engineered by: ChanceCold
Mixed by: Christopher "Freezz" Feaster
Brain Rapp’s recent album deals with the ups and downs of real life: health scares, bad breakups and newfound love. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 10, 2017