Supposed 2 Be (Life Like This)
By: ChanceCold

V. 1
Can’t close my eyes anymore – Tryna sleep with em open
This paranoia’s more potent than I thought – Huh – My Focus
Is blurry and I can’t clear it up – no - My hands are shaking –
Adrenaline from hearing sirens – Guess them indictments are in –
Zero Friends – (They Gone)
Evaporate when it hits the fan –
But best believe they plentiful when them L’s come in (for real)

I’ve always had the ability to – see right through em
Yet still allowed infiltration – as if I was blind to em –
Bad influence from the fluids – 151 proof –
Got my tears soaking my profits – them feds got proof (sure do)
Cuz people’s talking, telling stories – and them stories are true –
And I’m getting high so I can look down on the mess I got myself into –

My ways are intuitive – living by instinct alone –
Flipping through the contacts (where) – on my mobile phone –
Wishing I had someone I trusted – Call em and let off steam –
Then the door flies off the hinges –
Them feds apprehended me – OH NO –

Hook:
I’m so far from where I’m supposed to be
Supposed To Be –
Sick and tired of the backstabbing, court cases, and felonies –
I’m so far from where I wanna be – Wanna Be –
This Life’s Not For Me (NO)
God, I Hope You’re Hearing Me – (PLEASE)
I’m trapped in a storm of my own creation – I’m All Alone –
Just Me And The Felonies I’m Faced With –
I Can NO LONGER – Hold Back The Tears
Yeah I Know I Made This – I Can’t Escape This –
I Live It Daily – But Best Believe I Really Hate This -


V 2
It’s like no one can understand – circumstance I’m in
Solitary – outside of my pistol – my bondsman’s my best friend –
Having to fend for myself out here in the midst of snakes and wolves
In sheep’s clothing – but I can’t blame em –
We all want our stomach’s full (gotta eat) –

Police around here know me – on a first and last name basis –
Gets me pulled over for the mere fact they saw my face and –
On Top Of That – Already Feel Someone Following Me –
Unaware That It’s Just The Enemy That Dwells Within Me –

Man, where do I from here – this road’s a dead end (stop) –
Standing on my feet solid – sinking in quick sand (no control) –
No control over myself – my mind moves at lightning speed –
Too Many Thoughts Keep Me Stressing –
Need Sunglasses To See –

Yeah that sounds like a contradiction – Pain rests in my eyes –
Plus I’m a man so I can’t let anybody see my cry (No) –
And I tried to let this life go – guess I ain’t try hard enough –
My Kids Are The ONLY Thought Stronger Than Thoughts Of My Wrists Being Cut –

Hook:
I’m so far from where I’m supposed to be
Supposed To Be –
Sick and tired of the backstabbing, court cases, and felonies –
I’m so far from where I wanna be – Wanna Be –
This Life’s Not For Me (NO)
God, I Hope You’re Hearing Me – (PLEASE)
I’m trapped in a storm of my own creation – I’m All Alone –
Just Me And The Felonies I’m Faced With –
I Can NO LONGER – Hold Back The Tears
Yeah I Know I Made This – I Can’t Escape This –
I Live It Daily – But Best Believe I Really Hate This -